Army-Analyzer

It's been 36 days since I came here. I remember how it all seemed so difficult and strange at the beginning, all the rules and customs, like I'd never get them all. Now I feel like I'm already living here. I have my army-family, my girls and guys, routines and habits. So far it's been a pretty bumpy road but all in all, I've really loved this.

While I was writing my first real army-entry about my first weeks in here I realized something funny about this life in here. It really resembles a life with an illness. The beginning is hard to understand, first phases are quite tough sence you encounter a new lifestyle, a one that you're not used to. The first days feel so damn long. But day by day, an hour by hour you grow bigger than the obstacles. You get familiar with all the factors that control you. In here those factors are the rules, dicipline. In my civilian life it's scleroderma.

Somedays are harder that the others; I feel more sick or we don't get enough sleep or the weather is + 30 C. But most of the days I get to overcome myself; I get to do things I never thought I'd be able to do, and it makes me feel so good. Everyday I go to sleep knowing I've done something.

It's the same with sclero too; If we just could see all the obstacles we overcome daily as a strength to carry on. That way we could trust ourselves more to encounter even greater hardships. That is the deal in healing; Taking steps forward.