Smiley Soldier

Day 1

There are moments you understand that this can be so hard and it feels quite hopeless. But in the other hand I've felt relaxed; I smelled a birch.

Day 2

Air is so thick and hot. My plans for this year are starting to get a shape. I am proud of Tomi. I miss everyone. Lately I've had this song ringing in my head: "..even thou I walk trough the valley of the shadow of the death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me..". Thanks for that.

Day 3

Today it feels like I'm just hanging out. The beret is awesome, the staff is awesome, our corporal is awesome, my unit is a little bit unfair, even the girls I live with are awesome. But still I would have wanted that phone call.

Day 4

So now we know each other's favorite Pokemons. The pain in my heels is almost infernal. But I do like shooting with 7.62 RK and can't wait for us to get into the forest! Let's see what I've been made of. The word of the day: Balance: What's too much, where the fence is the lowest?

Welcome to my life

You see it's not easy

But I am doing alright.

Day 5

My wants and plans are really getting that shape now, I feel like the stress that I've been building for 2 years is gone. I'm really getting used to this so fast. Even thou walking hurts and everyone just runs around I like this. In here you learn to appreciate little things even more. You just need to remember to breathe. Loads of sweat, a little bit of blood, not too many tears. I still miss Tomi.

All that is gold does not glitter,

Not all those who wander are lost;

The old that is strong does not wither,

Deep roots are not reached by the frost.

From the ashes a fire shall be woken,

A light from the shadows shall spring;

Renewed shall be blade that was broken,

The crownless again shall be king

Day 6

I know how to aim. Things are rolling on and we're getting more rights. Thanks to the corporals for nice words.

Day 7

Gosh I missed Jukkis, my friend! Today we had visitors here, a friend and my family. Before that there was a church service which was pretty emotional for me. "Some angel was singin there." The heat is on. Must enjoy this free time I'm having!

8,4 kilometers, running, on a falling rain.

Day 8

........ Whatever. I feel tired.

Day 9

Did well on the shooting range! One day at a time. Can't wait for tomorrow.

Day 10

March 1, went well for me. Today I felt the wind for the frist time for ages.

Day 11

I'm really getting along in here. I had a nice day today. We were in the shooting range again and I'm doing better all the time. Gosh how much I enjoyed eating pancakes in the forest, sun warming up the earth and the air but the trees creating a nice shade.

We must be swift as a coursing river

With all the force of a great typhoon

With all the strenght of a raging fire

Mysterious as the darkside of the moon.